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After last week I am starting over today. Clean slate. White board wiped clean. Day 1. We suffered another loss about a week and a half ago at work. The property manager took another job and left us with no notice. All last week my one boss was taking the phone calls and not calling anyone back. Water wasn’t working at one of the homes we manage for 3 days. Board members for one association we manage were calling because a new occupant needs a key to the building. People we contract out to fix the roof of the building we are in came in to tell us they are starting had no idea. The PM left without telling anyone except for the agent who left right before him. Needless to say, last week was a nightmare. Good news is we did hire someone who did this kind of thing before. He was an agent in the office but had to leave due to financial reasons. The only bad part is he wasn’t left much information. At least this way he can do things how he wants and make good impressions on those he has to.

Now last week I also had to deal with stress of my hubby being sick late week, phone calls about tax informaiton, needing to get together with my parents to pick some things up, and trying to figure out how we are going to work both of us needing the car when the other car is in the shop. With all that going on it was doing a number on my diet. I decided not to get on the scale at all last week because I didn’t want to make myself more stressed out over a number. I took my shower this morning and the whole time I was in the bathroom I had one eye on the scale. “What the hell. If I am going to get back on the right track I need to know.” I stayed the same! For all the stress I had I seroiusly thought I was going to be waaaaay up.  Woo-hoo! Go me!

I caught myself watching tv lastnight not even thinking about exercising. Something snapped in my head and I got up and pulled out the AbLounge from its “hiding” place under the bed. I did a little streching first then was working on my midsection for a good half hour. The tv played a good distraction and when I looked at the clock when I was done it was 9:00pm! I am all for a repeat of lastnight.

Today was weigh in day. I stayed the same this week. I am not down about it because I didn’t gain anything. This week has been a little stress filled and that has caused me to be a little lazy and not want to do anything. This nasty gloomy weather has not helped too much either. I don’t think I have seen the sun in like a week. Every day its rainy, snowy, cold, foggy, cloudy. I am going to start fresh. This week of not losing, not gaining, is motivating me to do whatever I can to get myself back on the right track.

On a different note, I had a pretty decent talk with one of my bosses earlier this week. I explaned my frustrations that I am having with this office and she agreed with me. Now she is supposed to be the office manager and knows about everything that goes on here. Since her last back surgery she hasn’t been in but a few hours each day due to health reasons, family reasons, etc. A couple of the partners in the business have decided to take full control and take away some of the responsibilities of the office manager. Needless to say this office did a complete 180. When I started it was great. Now it is the most stressful environment to be in. The partners have put themselves so high up they think everyone else is waaaaaay beneth them. The only people who come anywhere close are people with the same last name (three of the four partners are family), men, and the women in the office are all the way on the bottom. I am not the person to sit back and just take the crap they throw at me. I make it very clear that most of the things that they want me to do are not in my job description or they are illigal for me to do because I don’t have a real estate license myself. Anyway, by the end of the conversation with the office manager (who was the one that hired me in the first place to be an office secretary not a personal assistant to anyone!) she told me that she has about had enough of them too. It’s just a matter of my finding a new job then I will be out of here. The partners are going to be completly lost without me. I can’t take the stress anymore. Its really at an unhealty level.

After taking a rather long detour, I think it is time to explain what I am going to do to get back on track. My eating hasn’t been a problem. I am still doing very good with that. I am going to start (again) on Monday with the workouts that have worked for me when I was doing them. The Firm system is fun to do and it gives you a monthly schedule with what dvd’s you should use on what days. It incorporates rest days too. Combination strength training and cardio so I can start borning off these calories! That should hold me until this nasty winter season is over with! =)

It may have been a small loss but it was still a loss. 1 pound this week, but it is a lot better then nothing and most definatly better then a gain! I am still staying positive and going to start working a little harder to lose a couple more pounds for next week. Maybe I will start walking the flight of stairs when I get bored at work for some extra exercise!

I feel like eating healthier is like 2nd nature now. I don’t have a taste for a lot of the bad, bad things anymore. My portions have been great too. My metabolism has picked up which is great. I always have stopped eating when I felt full so that isn’t a problem. My problem is I haven’t felt motivated enough to get up and exercise.  The cold weather hurts because I love being outside. I can’t get out and do the things I love to do outside. I can’t seem to get up from the comfort of my couch when I get home from work. I know as soon as I exercise I will be able to drop some pounds easier. I wish I lived someplace where the temperture rarely dropped below 40! 

I was dreading this morning all week. I knew that there was going to be a change in the number on the scale. I thought thought all week about the things I am having to deal with. Things that I have been chewing off my nails from. I thought about what I have been eating lately and what I still need to change. I have not been eating any fast food for lunch but I thought it was still going to hurt. The moment of truth. I stepped on the scale and………170! I lost 2 pounds this week. Not bad for still being lazy and not wanting to exercise. I know I need to get in the habit of being more active. I need to do something. I am so excited that I lost 2 lbs, but I know it could have been a little more if I would have exercised. Yay for me!

I have been reading so many blogs in the past day and a half. I find myself getting very motivated by all of you. All the kind words being said, challenges by people and especially the success stories I have read have really inspired me. I know I haven’t done everything that I can to get really moving with this phsycally but mentally I am there. I am fully prepared to take however long it takes to lose the 50 pounds I want to lose before my best friends wedding in June of 2009. Yes, 2009, over a year away. I still have been doing more and more each day to cut the bad foods out of my diet and I have been drinking plenty of water. I love water so I dont have a problem there. Thinking about how much I love fruits, veggies, salads and water you wouldn’t think that I would be thinking about needing to lose some weight. Stress from work, giving in when my husband buys ice cream and other sweets, having to eat dinner by myself 3 nights a week and have either fast food or tons of pasta kill me. Today my mom called me to see if I wanted to have dinner with them which was a great thing. You can’t beat a home cooked meal of a pork chop, roasted potatoes, and black eyed peas when it is offered, at least I can’t! People at work have been thinking I am dying or something because I have not had burgers or fried food or soda for lunch in over 2 weeks. Salads (with no dressing ), small baked potatoes with a teensy tiny 1/10 of an ounce of butter and chives, and fish have been my favorite things to eat for lunch. Today I did have a small amount of Chinese food (shrimp with peapods…I don’t know how that is for you but I like to think its better than fast food, please correct me if I am wrong).   Ok, well I think I rambled on long enough for right now. I totally look forward to tomorrow and getting things accomplished. Oh, by the way, if anyone wants to challenge me, bring it on!

So I was sitting at home today when my phone rang. I almost missed it and I’m glad I didn’t. My best friend was calling me to tell me she has a combined late Christmas and birthday present for me but she needed help getting unloaded from the car. I was so confused at that point and my husband out out this question, “What is big yet inexpensive that you could already have one of?” I had an hour to think about it before she got to my house and couldn’t come up with anything. Amanda came in and said “Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday! Here you go,” and handed me booklets and the bungy cords that go to a hardly ever used (like 4 times) AbLounge Sport. Her fiance’s sister had it and using it gave her headaches (I’m still trying to answer that one!) and said she could have it. Amanda has witnessed me on a couple occiasions go to the store with the sole purpose of using it and not wanting to part with $100 to actually take it home. So now I have a almost brand new AbLounge that is folded up under my bed that I will be getting out quite a few times a week to compliment my workout.

My hubby was so excited about what he bought me for my birthday he has to call me as soon as he hit the “order now” button on the computer I thought he was going to spoil it and tell me. Well he wouldn’t and I really wanted a hint. I didn’t even get that much. I waited the full 27 1/2 hours to see what it was when he finally gave it to me. I was a little confused when I see this bag in front of me on the table and a huge goofy look on his face. Turns out that he bought me a new bike and it was going to be delivered that weekend. I was looking all summer last year for a bike that I liked because I love to go bike riding. I havent had a good bike in years and I am looking forward to going out when the weather turns nicer.  He bought himself a new bike at the same time so we can go out together. When it came, I made him help me put it together when he got off work. It took us an hour, but at least it is all ready for me when I want to go out!

So this week I have devoted to watching what I eat. In over a week I haven’t had the greasy cheeseburgers from fast food places for lunch and cut out a lot of fried food. Amazingly I have cut out a lot of soda from my diet too. I like unsweetened iced tea so I can still get some caffine but not all the sugar. I haven’t pigged out on anything and watched portion sizes. What I really need to do is go to the grocery store and buy things to actually cook at home. This eating out most of the time has to stop! If anyone has good recipes I would love to see them!

I am so glad my sister introduced me to this. I am hoping that this really helps out. It should help with motivation. It will take some time and patience but I know I can do this! I promise I will update more soon!